Wonderemployment

It's almost Thanksgiving, and I want to focus on giving thanks for my health and safety, my family, my friends, my opportunities, and all the positive change that is taking place in the world. In order to do that, I really need to get some things off my chest. Since last night I have had a hard time thinking about much else besides what is happening in Ferguson and all over the country. I don't know why I am stunned each time these decisions come down, but I am. It saddens me so much not only to see young black men being killed without consequence, but also the level of racism and ignorance that fill my news feed and the internet at large. It is hard to even say anything about this because I know I will probably be judged and criticized as well. But it's also getting hard NOT to say anything. This affects me. It affects all of us, and if you are not sure why, please take time to ask someone and reflect on the answer. Most of us have no idea what happened during the even...

The last two weeks have been a blur of events and emotions. As I've been processing the end of my old job and the start of my new one, I've been trying to recall how I felt and dealt with other ends and beginnings, like moving out of Eugene (where I went to college), or starting my first week at NICOS. I've been drawing a complete blank. I suppose transitions are harder to remember because by nature they exist between two longer, usually more stable, periods. I can only remember the big emotions, the hard ones. I remember how soul-crushingly lonely I felt in my first few weeks in San Francisco, then DC. I remember crying at age 11 when we moved out of the only house I'd lived in my whole life. As I've said many times before, change is hard for me. But I hope that by documenting it this time, I'll have something to refer back to next time I find myself in-between. So now to rewind a bit... my last few weeks at NICOS were extremely busy. I had a lot of commun...